I Wonder

I Wonder
by Bekah Jane Pogue

I wonder, if when God designed the cosmos, did He clap his hands in gleeful delight?

Did he grin as Spirit-dust fell on sweet souls below, making its way into their essence? Shimmering and drawing one another through a familiar connection?

Did he dance as Spirit-dusted sojourners weaved and worked and noticed in others, there’s something familiar about that one. There’s a kindred light, all the while reflecting an infinite galaxy cupped in His palms?

Did these Spirit shimmers cross paths, become brighter and focused? Like flashlights searching until ah! a bright dot connects two beams?

Then another beam and another; Spirit-dust souls playing and peopling and going about their wide-open way, sensing a deep knowing that they are gathering, connecting, holding the Divine design inside, as they reach out to the next light, and together, hold hands and mirror the constellations above.

I wonder.

 

Bekah Jane Pogue is an author (Choosing REAL, Choosing REAL Devotional, and Praying Your Way Toward Forgiveness) founder of Pasture Experience Retreat, spiritual director-in-training, listener, and design enthusiast. She is most fully alive sitting on her porch listening to people share their hearts. She communicates from a space of intentionally unclimbing the Someone ladder in order that God- not she – is the one glorified. Bekah loves off-road wildflower picking, antiquing, dancing while she bakes, and exploring Nashville with her crew. She loves connecting face-to-face but her blog is where you can find her as well: bekahpogue.com. Instagram: @BekahJanePogue

The Work of The Garden

The Work of the Garden
by Michele Morin

There are no minutes in the garden–
only rows,
a measure not of time, but of task.
In the first garden, Adam was given the task of naming:
zebra and musk ox;
cheetah and gerbil.
He punched no clock, but poured out creativity, fulfilling his role.
Eve may have pruned apple trees for optimal fruition, but she wore no floppy sun hat.
There were no obligatory tick checks at day’s end.

In the garden,
without wasteful frenzy, the job gets done.
So when I say,
“I’ll weed for a half hour, and then I’ll come in and start supper,”
what I really mean is,
“Supper might be late tonight.”

And there I will be,
under a floppy sun hat,
soaking in bright afternoon rays which generate a heat amounting to
just about what the tomato plants ordered.

The beets I replanted after torrential rain are sprouting,
but so are the weeds.

And those five rows of cucumbers…
I’ll hill two of them right now, and then stand in the shade to drink water
and admire the work.

Is this how time will move and be measured in eternity?
In God’s forever garden?
When arms and legs accomplish what the heart and mind have conceived,
the hands of the clock will
tick tock
no more.

All that will matter is the work of the garden,
the work our hearts and hands were made for.

 

Michele Morin is a teacher, reader, writer, and gardener who does life with her family on a country hill in Maine. She has been married to an unreasonably patient husband for 30 years, and together they have four sons, two daughters-in-love, and three adorable grandchildren. Michele is active in educational ministries with her local church and delights in sitting at a table surrounded by women with open Bibles.

In The Depths

In The Depths
by Prasanta Verma

Can we be our own worst enemies?

Do you think I haven’t said all those things to myself? Chastised myself? Assailed myself over my own mistakes?

And also these—not words spoken, but more often, those words not spoken, tongue-tied at the thought of it, because I believed lies about myself and stifled my own voice. Believed myself unworthy. For far too long.

Have I been living in some sort of purgatory? Who doles out these sentences?

Here, I shall name them for you, all of it, the wounds, the aches, the endless.

I can point to each one, name them; the scars visible to all, not hidden. Time completes the healing, after the wounds, the clotting, then sealed up, the signs of battles fought visible to all.

When walking in fields of green—I wondered—does nature taunt me, too? I felt nature taunting me with her beauty, fullness, life, imperturbable joy, insouciant existence, unconcerned for my presence, onlookers, any other creatures.

Those delicate flowers will die soon. Or get trampled upon, or destroyed by wind and rain. And then the snows will descend; a bitter cold.

But they possess life there, in wooded beauty, little living things…only living in glory for One.

And then me, walking along and disturbing the peace, with years of wanting, and thirst drying my tongue.

I was a shadow in the beauty of the place, soaking up light and letting it fill me, borrowing beauty from flowers, so I would not sink in darkness.

I couldn’t fully express what my mind wanted, way back then.

I had a naïve, youthful hope. I had known only what I had known; and limited books, limited knowledge, and confound it—a generational dysfunction that plagued me in all sorts of relationships, all sorts of living…“the gift that keeps on giving.”

But now, yes, I can express it.
It was simply what everyone else wanted. No different. No more, no less, what I was seeking.

When you find out how wrong you were, what you misunderstood, misinterpreted, and realize your own years of dysfunction seeded within that you need yanked out of you, and abuse and lies heaped on you….

Finally, one day, at some point, you wake up.

Oh, God’s grace.

My back snapped with the weight, and I woke up.

No, I said.
No.
Wrong, I said.
Wrong.

You find yourself
waking up to a world of possibility.

You no longer want to be a piece of dirt… but ironically, that is what you are.

A restored, redeemed piece of dirt.

And it’s true, real, balanced.
Dust in human form, that is.

A conduit for something holy, for something more real, more resplendent than anything else you’ve known.
A conduit for love to reach the world, despite broken limbs and inadequate voice.

What you wanted…
no, it wasn’t perfection that I sought.
Just. This.
Relationship. Love. Companionship. Friendship.
To be believed. Wanted. Heard. Loved.

When it knocks your breath out, when you find yourself stunned, silent, when you find out what was a massacred heap of lies, when your words, ideas, and thoughts were discarded like forgotten, torn pieces of cloth, when you felt boiled down to nothing, and upside down became the way you walked for so long, in confusion and swirled in a vortex of lies…

When it turns out.
When it turns.
You go out.
You go within.

You look up.

On sunny days, I still feel the spinning, because it all still exists. Massacres don’t disappear, but live on, a recurring nightmare. Aftershocks discharged from unpredictable swells of cyclonic memories. No one knows the end date of your own nightmares or nightmarish realities. Or another’s tempests and inner storms. Shredded. Insides. Heart. Life. Hope. No weather predictions are accurate. A circle doesn’t end. Continuous storms. Within. Without.

Not fully, not really living, completely, not fully myself. Not living in the full sense of the word.
As one would think. As you, in your lives, may be living. Or not be living.

My eyes, full of visions of faraway suns and moons. My desires, stirred from youthful expectation and anticipation.
I watched them wither, flounder like a fish out of water, writhing and struggling to survive, flapping and gasping on hot concrete.

Regrets. Yes, oh, too many. Let me not recount for you—regrets mostly of what was left unspoken, undone.

What ifs. They cut one open.

Stop surmising, imagining, dreaming.

Except.
Except…
for the hands of One who plunged me into waters, deep waters, where I thought I would drown, but where depths saved me, as water is what I needed.

Except.
Except…
for a gleam of hope from years of living, that one silver thread
that kept me from dying.
A golden sunrise was visible
in pains, pains of this life,
to keep my feet from slipping.

Keep two feet planted in the ground. But always looking up, hopeful.

Looking to what? Not to stars and nebulae, which have a death-wish, a finite life.

But looking to a further light, that is beyond the realm of the eye. To a hope beyond any horizon seen with once distraught, cloudy eyes, but now reflecting the light of a Love unseen.

 

Prasanta Verma is a freelance writer, poet, and artist. Prasanta was born under an Asian sun, raised in the Appalachian foothills in the southern U.S., and now lives in the Midwest. She has been published in Relief JournalBarren MagazineExhale Journal, Silver Birch Press(in)courage, and Tweetspeak Poetry. 

Gold and Scarlet Offerings

Gold and Scarlet Offerings
by Sue Fulmore

It begins, the leisurely arrival of fall creeping across the landscape, setting the world aglow in hues of amber, gold and scarlet. Squirrels are gathering and home-building for winter, perennials are storing energy deep in their roots for their reappearance next spring.  Growing things of all sorts are liberally spreading their seeds, guaranteeing a return after the long winter months.

The overflowing abundance of the garden has been harvested, put-up, frozen and canned.  The plot lies naked and dormant waiting for the covering of leaves and then snow. After the frenetic activity of spring and summer growth, it’s as if the world is taking a long exhale, readying itself for a good long nap.

I feel this in my body as well.  The days of gardening – cutting, trimming, digging- are coming to a close for this year. The days shorten, life begins to slow with the pace of nature.  The chill in the air has ushered in more space to breathe and to ruminate.

Richard Rohr tells us spiritual transformation follows a pattern from order through disorder and finally to reorder.[i] As we age, and travel through the various stages of life, surrendering to this process allows us to grow in wisdom, and to develop our trust muscles.  Confidence is built as we find, repeatedly, our way through disorder and arrive at a place with new vistas and possibilities.

The deciduous trees will soon begin to relinquish their leafy finery and become bare; branches exposed to the elements. If they sought to hold onto their leaves this would endanger them; their branches would break under the weight of the snow on the canopy and the trunk would not receive the life-giving moisture it needs. Life is preserved within the letting go.

Much like the trees, I recognize my need to let go – of the seasons passed, roles I have outgrown, the “normal” way of things and surrender to the process of transformation.  The discomfort of exposure makes me want to cover up or distract, to avoid the pain which comes from shedding old skins.

I find myself feeling stripped bare these days.  The life I knew is no longer.  So much has been removed, leaving me feeling vulnerable and exposed. I recently left my job and the rhythms which used to support and contain me are gone. I find myself feeling adrift, looking for an anchor, a steadying structure for my days. I feel the disordering taking place.

My children have grown and left home, wandered far in pursuit of their dreams. Intellectually I know this is the good and natural progression of things. When my houseplants no longer have space for their roots to spread, they suffer and fail to flourish.  I know this is true of my children as well.  They need space to grow, a new habitat in which to thrive.  Yet it feels like a rending, a tearing apart: slices of myself have been removed and are now miles away housed in the bodies of my children. I learn to navigate this new reality; our relationships shift and grow. As I gradually release the loss of what was, space opens up for what is yet to come.

In letting go of all I have been holding onto; I am able to release the seeds which were hidden there. Finally, they can fall to the ground to sprout and grow into the “new” I could never envision or anticipate. The latent beauty in those clenched seeds can now be released.  How much might I miss if I fail to surrender?

Is it the hiddenness of this impending season that I fear?  This time of abiding in unseen places where the difficult inner transformation takes place? Like the bulbs as they lay hidden underground, dormant but storing up energy for their blooming, this time of dormancy may be required of me as well.  There is no glory without first a burying. I am reminded of the words of Jesus,

Listen carefully: Unless a grain of wheat is buried in the ground, dead to the world, it is never any more than a grain of wheat. But if it is buried, it sprouts and reproduces itself many times over. In the same way, anyone who holds on to life just as it is destroys that life. But if you let it go, reckless in your love, you’ll have it forever, real and eternal.[ii]

I so often want to skip this step of growth.  I want beauty to be fully formed and blooming without the need to submit to hidden, solitary work. How hard it is to eschew the busyness of life for the uncomfortable, lonely places where real work is done. To mine the depths of the true inner self, which often gets buried under the image we show to the world, is hard and holy work. In turning away from distractions, embracing my place in the loamy ground of silence and hiddenness, I can be fed, grown, and prepared to live a life of love, to have something of value to offer the world.

What if we turned aside from the constant distractions of life, the pulling of our attention to the urgent rather than what is essential?  Making room instead for silence, reflection, and the examining of our lives? What if we took time to acknowledge the ways we have failed to love well, to confess, and ask the One who is love for help? How would we change if we counted the ways we have seen beauty and abundance? What if we embraced our status as beginners and allowed ourselves to be led? What if each day instead of listening to the clamoring of our minds, we made space for “that other larger, stronger, quieter life (to) come flowing in”[iii]? There may be nothing tangible to be seen from these times but it is here that meaningful work is happening under the surface.

At the edge of this season I feel hesitant to step off into the unknown, into what feels like chaos. There is a picture hanging in my home, of a boardwalk heading toward the sea.  I can see where the level, much-travelled path comes to an end, and the wild sand dunes and sea beckon.  Do I hang on, like my life depends on it, to all that is comfortable, safe?  Or to I throw myself into the space trusting that the safety net of God’s love is spread wide to catch me?

As the trees offer up their leaves as a gift to the earth, they will settle and form a shelter for tender roots, during the long winter. They will become part of the nourishment for soil and plants, an investment in what is yet to come. The gold and scarlet offerings are, in the end, signs of hope.

[i] https://cac.org/reorder-the-promised-land-2020-08-23/

[ii] John 12:24-25 MSG

[iii] Devo­tion­al Clas­sics: Select­ed Read­ings for Indi­vid­u­als and Groups (Richard J. Fos­ter & James Bryan Smith, Edi­tors. Harper­Collins, 1993.).

 

Sue Fulmore is a freelance writer and speaker, seeking to use words to awaken mind and soul to the realities of the present.  Some of her work has been published at Red Letter Christians, The Perennial Gen, Convivium Magazine, Joyful Life Blog, and Asbury Seminary Soul Care Community. Like a prospector panning for gold, she uses her pen to uncover beauty and truth hidden just below the surface of our lives. She is the mother of two adult daughters and lives in sunny Alberta, Canada with her retired husband. You can find her at https://www.instagram.com/suefulmore/and https://www.suefulmore.com/

Home

Home
by Terri Kraus

Even when life is good, during seasons when all seems right with the world, I sometimes still experience unnamed longings. They are deep, elusive feelings, as if there is something that I know I need but is not within reach. When I sit with them, I come to understand that these longings are not for something physical, some material thing that I lack. Nor are they longings for something from another person, such as love or acceptance. I believe I am longing for a somewhere.

I am an extremely curious individual, and, since a little girl, have always wondering what’s over the next hill. In all my travels, I’ve been to many beautiful places and have seen a lot of “must see” things that had been glowingly described in my pre-trip research, but I’ve yet to find the perfection that completely lives up to my expectations. I pictured Rome’s Trevi Fountain as being out in a lovely bucolic setting, but found it confined between closely huddled ancient buildings on a narrow pedestrian street in the middle of the busy city full of the buzzing sound of Vespas speeding by. I remember the first time I saw DaVinci’s masterpiece, the Mona Lisa, after years of anticipation from my art history studies. I was so surprised that she is a relatively small painting, when in my mind’s eye she should be a lot bigger, and she was displayed well behind a rail and a thick sheet of protective glass. The experience was somewhat, well, dissatisfying. Some of Europe’s most famous well-preserved historic villages I’ve looked forward to visiting came with tacky souvenier kiosks and were often overrun by tourists, somewhat tarnishing the pristine places shown on travel sites’ photography.

I’ve come to realize that I’m longing for something this world cannot give me, that I’m a soul yearning for where I truly belong. I am longing for home.

Madeleine L’Engle, in The Rock That is Higher, says, “We’re all strangers in a strange land, longing for home, but not quite knowing what or where home is. We glimpse it sometimes in our dreams, or as we turn a corner, and suddenly there is a strange, sweet familiarity that vanishes almost as soon as it comes.”

But Psalm 90:1-2 tells me,

Lord, through all the generations
you have been our home!
Before the mountains were born,
before you gave birth to the earth and the world,
from beginning to end, you are God.

As a believer, I am not completely at home here. I’m a pilgrim just passing through. The Bible calls me a sojourner, an exile, and tells me that my citizenship is in heaven. Hebrews 13:14 say, “For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city that is to come.” I have been created for a different place.

I know my true home is with God. The temporary longings of my soul can only be satisfied in Him. He is my eternal shelter—now, and in the life to come when I arrive, finally fulfilled, in the place he’s preparing for me—my perfect home, that will never disappoint.

 

After writing nine co-authored historical and contemporary novels with best-selling author/husband, Jim, Terri added her award-winning interior designer’s eye to her world of fiction with her last contemporary trilogy—the Project Restoration Series. Terri has been blessed with the opportunity to travel extensively internationally. A graduate of the University of Illinois, she taught Interior Design at the college level for eight years, and directed women’s ministries at her church for six years. Terri has served as President of Redbud Writers Guild, an international, diverse and dynamic group of 150 Christian women writers, for over 6 years. 100% Italian, she enjoys all things from the culture of her heritage. Terri is a recent empty-nester, and makes her home in Wheaton, Illinois, USA. Her devotional, Rustic Retreat: Inspirations From A Mountainside Farm, will be released by Tyndale in Spring 2021.

Website: terrikraus.com
Facebook: @krausfiction
Twitter: @1sealover
Instagram: @1sealover

The Body Speaks

The Body Speaks
by Gina Butz

The knots in my shoulders
are where I store
all my secrets
all the unspoken emotions
the burdens I wouldn’t give
to someone else

They live there,
huddled together
weighing me down

If I could open them,
a flood of a thousand tears
would pour out
The unspoken grief of a lifetime
but those knots
do not easily give way

My body speaks to me
and I hush it
it whispers, “let’s be still”
while I race
the tightness tells me
it’s all too much
but I press on

I have fooled the world
with my strength
myself most of all
but my body keeps the score
and I’m tired of the fight

All this time I thought
It was my enemy
something to force into submission
and the right size pants
but now I see a friend
one who has held our sorrows
and fears so faithfully

All along she has tried
pleaded with me
to slow us down
asked us to just be
I think I’m finally ready
to listen

My body tells me
we need to rewrite the script
open the veins
loosen the tendons
let the tears flow
embrace our need
let ourselves be small
and there we will find rest

 

Gina Butz and her husband, Erik, have served in full-time ministry for 25 years, 13 of them in East Asia. They are currently raising their two third culture kids and an imported dog in Orlando, Florida, where Gina serves in leadership development at Cru headquarters. Her first book, Making Peace with Change: Navigating Life’s Messy Transitions with Honesty and Grace, released February 4th. She blogs at www.ginabutz.com  and loves to connect on Twitter and Facebook.

Lamplit Windows

 

Lamplit Windows
by Jennie Cesario

          I stood once on a particular leaf-papered sidewalk, in a particularly quaint little harbor town, on a damp mid-autumn evening chilly enough for a jacket and a sweater. Across the street stood an old clapboard cape, its multi-paned windows a pleasing symmetry astride its wide timber door, and in each window an electric candle burning gentle gold in the gloaming.

            I scarcely know how to describe how I felt at the sight of it (or why I felt it). Quickened? Transported? Bewitched? I only know that my soul went as warm wax within me – as warm wax cradling a flame – softened and supple and incandescent in the dusk.

***

            Just up the road from that old saltbox cape are some woods I sometimes wander in. There’s a little hole at the bottom of a particular tree in there, so perfectly arched and welcoming, it captured my imagination at once.

            “What an ideal home for a little family!” I exclaimed the first time I saw it, thinking of an illustration from a Beatrix Potter tale.

            But my son, reader of field guides, corrected me. Noting the hole’s location right at the fork of a frequented trail, he said: “Not likely, mom. Animals don’t like to be so obvious. And they’re not at all romantic – unlike certain humans.”

             I should have known this – even if my notions of animal habits do come more from fiction than not. Even in Kenneth Grahame’s whimsical (and utterly transcendent) classic, The Wind in the Willows, most animal homes are not so easily discovered, even by other animals. In the story, Badger’s great house is only uncovered by Mole and Rat accidentally, and then only after a great deal of feverish digging through a snow bank.

            But what a house it is! And what hospitality! Badger graces his storm-driven friends with dressing gowns and slippers, a toasty fire, and a fine repast. And at bedtime there are beds that look “soft and inviting,” with linen on them that “smelled beautifully of lavender.”

***

            I stood long on that leaf-papered sidewalk, just looking at that old clapboard cape, its mild window-lights illumining the darkening landscape, the earth deep-scented in wood-notes, and molder, and brine. The low mist was a cold dew on my cheeks, and the leaves floated down about me from boughs already half-undressed.

            And there was something almost numinous in that moment, a strange glory in the decline of things. A powerful mystery in the imagery of home and light quietly contending with autumnal darkness and decay.

***

            When summer slips into fall and fall into winter, the length of days shortening and shortening, we find ourselves under lamps more often, doing home-like things in their gentler casting light. Lamps in my home have fallen on the pages of The Wind in the Willows, where that book has been read aloud to two enchanted children, or read and re-read alone by a certain sentimental adult.

            Like the best of tales, The Wind in the Willows can sometimes have the same effect on me as that picturesque candlelit house at the harbor. The story seems to me to capture something of the wonder of our existence. Something of sunshine and storms and the cycles of seasons. Something of home and friendship, and of our foibles and inconsistencies softened by the tenderness and compassion of friends. Something of light waning to dark and dark waxing to light again – in nature, and in us.

            In one chapter, Mole and Rat pass through a small village on a snowy December evening, where “little was visible but squares of dusky orange red on either side of the street, where the firelight or the lamplight of each cottage overflowed through the casements into the dark world without… But it was from one little window, with its blind drawn down, a mere blank transparency on the night, that the sense of home… most pulsated.”

***

            The sense of home. Is that what cast such an inexplicable spell on me as I stood before that candlelit cape near the harbor? The ideals and intimacies of home life hinted at in lamplight, but not fully exposed? Was I imagining, beyond the glow of all those little candles, warm robes and toasty fires, fine repasts, and lavender-scented sheets? A refuge from all of life’s storms?

            Or was it something more? A sense of safety and cocooned coziness, yes. But all of that heightened by the sensory contrast between light and dark, damp and dry, cold and warmth? That first motif – light and darkness – is one so prevalent in our great art and literature, and so central in the Scripture. There, we find recurring themes of home – of homecomings and homelands, and the call to hospitality, and the offer of secret shelter in the shadow of mighty wings, a tender refuge for all the children of God.

***

            Once, a long time ago. I climbed the cold, concrete steps of an inner-city walk-up, and entered the dank apartment of a woman languishing in illness, confined to her bed. I confess, my young self was repulsed by the sour smells of sickness, the staleness of poverty.

            With two others, I prayed for that woman to rise, rise out of her bed. And if out of that bed, I hoped, out of that home that seemed no home at all, out of that neighborhood so bleak and blighted and treeless, so far removed from even the evidence of seasons and starlight and all the sanctifying sweetness of nature.

            I don’t know if that woman ever did rise. And for years I tried not think about her, or her family, or her neighbors, or of any life narratives that ran so counter to my own romanticized and relatively privileged one. Lives that knew nothing of leisurely walks in the woods and cushion-y chairs by a fire. Children with little exposure to the joys of imagination-sparking books, little children with little experience of beauty.

***

            Several years ago, I saw a picture online of a dead toddler face-down in the sand on the shores of the Mediterranean. And, to my shame, I only then began to truly shed my blinders. I only then began to think of refugees, of war-torn souls languishing in tents and camps all over the earth, with no real place to place their heads. Of those whose homelands are lost to them, perhaps forever. And of those who cry out for a new homeland but receive no welcome.

            These days I think, too, of a two-year-old boy, separated from his mother, being raised by teenage girls in a cell at the Mexican border. And I ache, too, with remembrance of a young teenage boy who died alone in a similar cell, shaking from the flu on a cement floor, no pillow to cradle his aching head, no blanket to cover him. No mother at hand to caress him.

            How many in the world cry out for what I have so long taken for granted – four walls, clean-scented sheets, and savory meals simmering on a stove? Or what Mole describes as that “special value of such anchorage in one’s existence.” A place to come back to, which is all our own, and which is ever glad to see us, ever reliable in its welcome.

            How many children in the world have never known – and perhaps may never know – the rapt bliss of bedtime stories read aloud by lamplight? And how many of us with more home comforts than we could ever require feel threatened by those home-deprived children, write them off as too inconvenient to consider? As Marilynne Robinson writes: “The shrinking imaginative identification which allows such things as shared humanity to be forgotten always begins at home.” And yet, in God’s design, the ideals of both home and humanity always go together!

***

            In some idealized sketch of my life, I might own that old clapboard cape at the harbor, my restoration of it profiled in the pages of Country Living or BHG. Bolded phrases like “vintage details” and “cottage charm” might caption photos of my salvaged plank floors, antique mantelpieces, and the maple tree shedding ombre leaves in front of my primitive, but refurbished, front door.

            But my spirit didn’t light up that damp autumn evening for mere covetousness. Like all people, I’m familiar with that vice, and know only too well how it hardens and darkens the soul. Instead, all my longings that evening seemed to come from somewhere beyond me. Standing on that sidewalk, my soul truly did soften and grow incandescent in the dusk. A frisson formed in my core and radiated all through my limbs, warming me with love. And as I lingered there, just looking across at that old candlelit cape, I gave spontaneous thanks to the Father, in whose house are many rooms lovingly prepared for the least of these.

 

 

 

Jennie Cesario is a Christ-follower, a writer, and a teacher. Her words have appeared in the Perennial Gen, the Redbud Post, Fathom Magazine, and the Ginosko Literary Journal. Follow her writing journey at dappledthoughts.com where she muses on life and literature in the lamplight of faith, or on social media: Twitter, Facebook, Instagram

The Gardener

The Gardener
by Wemi Omotosho

I’d heard it said.
Rumours, whispers, conversations.
Masses declared it.
Proclamations of hope
that He made all things new.
I looked around the muck
saw the mess and dirt.
How can He make this new?

Wanting to live like His daughter
but failing to do better
hypocrisy nipped at my heels.
This ground is nothing special
its potential nothing crucial.
Yes, He’s the loving Lamb
but surely I’ve made His heart numb,
would He want to make this new?

But I’d heard it said.
Masses affirmed it
that He made all things new.
Having nothing worthy to offer
my ground with its patchy growth and thorns I proffered.
Then the Gardener began.
Uprooted dead works and sowed fruit trees
watered the dry soil and nurtured seedlings.

And I?
I watched in wonder
as new life bloomed in a once messy pit.
I reached the end of me and He took over
He took my dirt and made a garden out of it.

 

 

Wemi Omotosho, PhD wears many hats as a scientist, entrepreneur, and writer. Currently, she lives with her husband and two children in London, UK. Wemi is active in her local church as a vocalist in the worship team, a bible study writer, and a coordinator for the public relations department. In her downtime, she can usually be found with her nose in a book or writing poetry. She is in constant awe of God’s love for her despite her mess. She shares her reflections and poems at www.reflectionsinthemess.com. Instagram: @reflectionsinthemess
Twitter: @WemiOmotosho

Awakened

 

Awakened
by Sarah Rennicke

We are all meant to be.

Someone.

Something.

A flash of light through thick, syrupy darkness.

 

We have been fastened together by dreams and shapes and symphonies, formed in the secret spaces of the deep. Intentionally. With fervor.

We are silhouettes made of stardust, given faces and smiles sewn on our porcelain skin. In the moon-speckled night, our deepest longings were whispered delicately into our ear. While we slept, we soared.

And then, slowly, with sensation sweeping from our eyelids, we awoke. To colors drying and chipping from the sky. With our faces, our lineage, our stories, muffled against the exhaust of nameless fumes, toxic and telling us to move along. They invaded our invincibility, our homes that hooked us to our cotton clouds and pulled the string. We slipped and stumbled to the ground, no longer aware of the way we floated. Instead, the sharp realization of reality jabbed us in the jaw, and then we knew how much the fall would hurt once our brittle bones hit the earth.  Huddled around us, voices hissed, full of doubt and fear and cruelty. The voices grappled for the shine in our eyes, tender from the blistering light that led us for so long. They took the glow and hid them in shadows, where we could only hear the faintest whimpers as they wailed at our separation.

We were tried and tested, bruised but never fully bleeding. This new world sneered at the likes of us, the dreamers who had dared to believe we were made for more. So they kept us cowering, crossed up in lies that we don’t deserve delight. That we cannot claim a life of our own.

Yet.

A seed, small, insignificant to the outside eye, has been planted.

Many years ago.

Many miles from this world.

And it has grown, quietly, in the concrete corners of our heart.

 

There is something inside of us that cannot stay hidden, cannot stay sleeping. It is dangerous, it is explosive, it is the greatest instrument we can possess. And with it comes the living rush of wind that sets our sails to travel the sky. To once and for all search the sands and find the perfect space to insert our own shell, unique and exquisite in a sunrise’s surprise.

This is the time.

We are formed from the hands of mercy, of beauty, of light and love. These hands that formed the heavens, formed us. And within our private precincts, they placed a voice, a vision, a task entirely our own and utterly under our command.

We are to set fire to the fabric of our beings. We are to answer this call abundantly and unabashedly. And we are to savor each second the sunlight sweeps over our face.

Because in our breath, we taste our Creator. In our skills, we see our Mentor. And in our depth and width and luster of this fading world’s wonder, we see Him who lifted us from the cradle of conformity and set us high upon the hill of hope, His light bathing us in such a glory all who look upon us burst forth in choruses of admiration.

How they shine, their reactions echo. How they radiate with the touch of His approval.

 

All other voices are silenced.

 

 

Sarah Rennicke enjoys listening to the heartbeats of the world and conveying them through words. She is the editor of Awake Our Hearts, writes for numerous nonprofit international organizations and publications, and has a strong affinity for dark roast coffee. Sarah is a member of Redbud Writers Guild, a vibrant and diverse movement of Christian women who create in community and who influence culture and faith. In the in-between moments, she likes to write narrative and lyrical essays exploring the longings of life and soul at www.sarahrennicke.com and on Instagram.

Awakening

 

Awakening
by Susanna Makinson

We are a precarious people,
never quite fitting our skin
until the time has passed
to be lithe and fluid within in.

But loss, I believe,
forces us to bloom or wither.

And the pain suddenly,
like thorns at our brow,
awakens us, though we never knew
we were sleeping.

 

 

 

Susanna Makinson grew up on a small fisherman’s island in Southern Florida. Her writing often contains elements of water, sea, and sky. She has experienced both the tragedy of loss and the beauty of redemption. She currently lives in the mountains of North Carolina with her husband and their six children. She enjoys learning about ethical farming practices, homeschooling her children, sewing, writing, and knitting. She is fueled most often by coffee and the sustaining love of Jesus. Instagram: @little_bluebarn